By the end of Childcare, the class was split into three groups. One was the popular group, one surrounded the teacher asking her questions, and one surrounded my best friend as they all said goodbye to her. I stood at the center of the class looking at the clock. The clock had been broken for sometime now, it never moved and just simply stayed at the same time day after day. I looked at my best friend as she talked happily to everyone, she caught my gaze and smiled at me. I smiled back and turned back to the clock. I made a wish; that it would stay like that for a while and that she wouldn't have to leave. I knew it was never going to come true, but I hoped. I zoned out in my train of thoughts.
"Alright girls, let's head downstairs," The teacher said as she ushered us out. As I walked out the door, I looked at the clock one last time and knew this was going to be a day I would never forget. The day I would see her, my best friend, my sister for the last time. Yeah, we made plans to write and call every day. But nothing ever sticks anymore and I knew, in my heart, that we'll slowly drift apart and she'll forget about me. I found it unfair. Not only was I losing one of the best people in the world, but I was so terrified that I would never get that close to anyone ever again. I walked down the stairs and through the gym doors, secretly hoping that I could avoid a goodbye, but deep down I knew I would feel terrible not saying goodbye.
"Shalen!" She yelled and I turned to look at her. 'Here it comes' I thought. But it didn't so I just followed her to her locker. We shared a joke for a bit and from the corner of my eyes I saw him coming towards me. So I turned to Danyka and hugged her the best I could. I felt my eyes water as I pulled away.
I swallowed a lump in my throat, and before I knew it I was pulled into another hug. I looked up and saw his eyes. Those warm and caring eyes that I've looked in so many times. We had, had a fight earlier that day and he was angry. When I looked into his eyes, I knew the anger he had felt before was gone and all I saw was pain. I will never understand that boy. But it was something in his eyes that made me wanna break down.
It's like my life was having another big turning point and I didn't know it yet. I know she's not gone forever, maybe we'll meet again someday. We met for a reason. Maybe one day, I'll understand what, but for now I just have to accept it. Accept that everything's always going to change and nothing stays permanent. Life doesn't stop because someone leaves, it goes on.
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