"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal"

So today I started to think about him again. But I wasn't thinking about what I miss about him, I was thinking about how he was coping with the funeral coming up. He lost someone special in his life, someone who was most likely like a second mother to him. The funeral's on Thursday and it's only Monday. I want to know if he's okay, I want to know how his coping, I want to know how it's going to be for him on the day, but it's not easy inboxing him and asking him. Why? Because after the fight I don't really think he cares what I think anymore, I don't think he would reply and say he was okay. I still care about him, a whole heck of a lot, and I know at one point I'll have to care a little bit less because when he does have another girlfriend, I know it's going to kill me inside. He probably hates me right now but honestly I don't care. He can hate me all he wants but I'm never going to stop caring for him. He won't need me but when and if he ever does come to me for help or for someone to listen, I know exactly what I'm going to do. I'm not going to shrug him off and tell him to go find someone else. Like the good friend I am, I'm going to sit and listen, even offer advice if he wants it.

People seem to be dying lately, and it's the good people too. I know everyone has to die at some point in there life and when they do, it's another person that the living have to mourn over. It makes you wonder why the good people are being taken out of our world. The ones that were strong and happy, and achieved alot in their lives. The ones that were loved the most and had a lot to live for.

The last two weeks just hasn't been the best. We had two beautiful souls taken from us and my heart goes out to all the families.

Belinda died on the 1st of January 2012, she left her two daughters Emma and Renee, as well as alot of close friends and family members. Emma, I don't know if you're ever going to read this or not and I know you've been told so many times but stay strong beautiful. From what I hear you're mum absolutely loved you and she still does, she's you're guardian angel now. Keep making her proud of you and don't forget that she'll always be in your heart. The pain will ease but it'll take time. I know you'll get through this, I believe in you.

R.I.P Belinda Gay <3



Kylie died on the 6th of January 2012. She was suffering from cancer and after a long fight, she just didn't have any strength to fight anymore. She was good friends with my sister and a strong fighter. Kylie was there at my sister's wedding and at the time you would never have noticed and that she was suffering. The last time I saw her, she looked so weak and in so much pain I felt so sorry for her. She's a great loss but at least now, she's not in pain anymore.



Note: Kylie's the one on the left.
R.I.P Kylie Fissioli

"Perhaps they are not the stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy"