My friends have always been there for me. From break-up to make-up. I have two best friends who have been there since primary school. Rachael and Paige have been through the journey with me when my sister's life changed. It wasn't a big change, but it really depends on how big of a change you think marriage is.
It's not any different now, except for the fact that she's a wife and suddenly the idea of a family is becoming more real to her. My sister and I always talked about her having kids, and how I would babysit all the time but it seemed years away. When she got pregnant the reality of it all actually hit me and I prepared myself. Then she lost the baby and I let myself relax but keeping that part of me in store for when it happens again.
Anyway back to the original idea of the blog; Rachael and Paige were there since I first announced my sister was engaged. They were there from the engagement party and right up to the big day. They were there for me when I needed them, when I needed a shoulder to cry on and when I needed to do my constant complaining. Rachael and Paige aren't what people call true friends because they're the meaning of true friends.
True friends have a way of making you smile, even on your worst days, whether the smiles real or fake they still manage to put it on your face. There are flaws too, like when you fight and you say things you didn't mean but you were too angry and it was just something that slipped out. In the end true friends get through those fights but that doesn't mean it didn't scar the friendship, it just means they don't want to do anything more to lose their best friend.
Speaking of losing a best friend. I lost one recently. Her name is Lili and I met her in year 8, when we bonded over our love of sims. It was when Lili became part of our little group and we became a foursome. For a while things were great between us and then we started to fight now and again, then when I was in a relationship I stopped hanging around the group altogether. I managed to hang on to Rachael and Paige and I wanted to hang on to Lili, but I felt that she didn't really wanna be friends anymore. When we finally talked she made it final that I already lost her. At that moment I wanted to apologise and wanted whatever forgiveness I she could give me, because my friendship with my closest friends are more important than my relationships, even if it didn't seem like it sometimes. She kept saying about how she understood why I would rather Rachael and Paige over her, just because I knew them longer. I don't think she understands that in my mind friendship is about who stays and never leaves. It's not about who I've known the longest and I don't pick favourites. I never grew up with a best friend, so I take what I can get. I lost her though, because I let my relationsip control my life. Hopefully we find a way to restore that friendship and hopefully I don't do anything else to ruin it again, because next time, it'll most likely be over forever.
Two other girls I haven't mentioned yet, are both really good friends. They've supported me and gave up there time to hear my complaining and my constant bitching. I don't know if they know but I really do appreciate it. Catherine and Emma, thank you two for being really good friends and hearing my constant complaints, even though I know you both would rather live your own lives and deal with your own problems instead of hearing mine.
I only have one thing to say: Thank You :)
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