Problem after probelm.

Is it normal to completely forget your boyfriend when someone you LIKED for months suddenly pops up, even though you don’t talk to that person and you haven’t heard from him in a while?

Let me explain:

There was once a guy, let’s call him Luke, who I liked for months on end. I pretty much started liking him when he first smiled at me. Yes I have a thing for smiles. It was such a breathtaking smile that I couldn’t help but fall in love with it. For months I liked him and at one point, I thought I loved him. It was different around Luke. I found that when I talked to him I had a tendency to smile a lot. I wanted him to notice me so I did everything necessary to do that; I talked to him, I made sure he saw me at recess and lunch, I even drew attention to myself now and again when he was around. I always wondered what it would be like if we were together. He was on my mind night and day. Every time he smiled at me, my heart felt like it was ready to jump out of my chest. I got jealous at every girl that talked to him. I wanted to get over him because I knew I had no chance. So I started dating again.

My decision to date again was the best decision I ever made. It didn’t start off well because the first guy I dated, to get over Luke, was an absolute dickhead. Yeah, I hate him now. But then came this guy. This amazing guy and he changed my life. Let’s call him Zach. Zach’s been the one who I’ve been blogging about most of the time. The guy that made me fall hard then broke my heart and made me fall again. I absolutely love this guy.

But the thing is, last night Luke replied to my inbox and for a few minutes I completely forgot about Zach. For a few minutes I pretty much had trouble breathing because I saw his name. I was confused as hell. All the feelings I had for Luke suddenly came rushing back and I didn’t know what that meant. I guess when it comes to Luke; I’ll always feel the same way. I just know that I would never have a chance because:

a)    He moved to another town

b)    He could have better girls.

And because I’m crazy in love with Zach. The first time I would have dropped everything for Luke but now… I would never give up Zach. He was the best and worst thing that ever happened to me. No matter how much we fight, no matter how much I get angry and frustrated with him; I would never give him up. 

There's another thing too. Zach. Yeah I'm so darn confused with him. I don't think he knows that this is the absolute last straw. I'm not going to go through what I went through last time. He spends so much time with other girls, he doesn't even pay attention to when I'm around half the time. So yeah I'm not gonna bother going to his group if he's not even going to pay attention to me. If he ever ditches me, that's it. I'm not even going to fight. It's just over. I'm not gonna go through what one of my "friends", goes through with her boyfriend. Today her boyfriend basically told her that if she ever talks about this one girl, that she hates, then it's over. FUCKING RETARD. If Zach ever said that to me... Yeah haha let's not go there.

Let me explain:

There's this girl. Let's call her Emily. Emily's mum died a month and so ago. Yes it's sad and depressing. Emily pretty much causes the fights in most relationships. Why and How? Heck would I know. But she pretty much has all these boys wrapped around her little finger, that she doesn't realise how much conflict she causes between them and their girlfriend.

Are sleepovers acceptable when you're no longer a child? I DON'T THINK SO. There's a reason nobody has sleepovers anymore. Anything can and will happen in the heat of the moment. This girl doesn't realise just how much she's tearing relationships apart. Yes she just lost her mum and she needs her friends around. But doesn't she have girl friends? Or does she need guys' attention that badly? I was nice before but considering what my ''friends'' boyfriend told her. Yeah that's niceness is no longer there. The sooner she learns that she can no longer do the stuff she use to be able to do, as a kid, the happier everyone will be.