Valentine's Day. What is it exactly? Well from my understanding it's a day where you get to spoil your special someone and show them just how much you love them, or for others just a day when you show someone how much you truly appreciate them for being a good friend.
Ray and I have taken up the challenge to blog everything that happened today. Her blog is the perspective of single people on Valentine's Day and my blog is meant to be the perspective of people in a relationship on Valentine's Day. Here is a link to her blog: http://lifeandopinionsoftcmr.blogspot.com.au/
I woke up with the really weird but good feeling. I knew today was going to be different somehow. Just different from every other day and different from every other Valentine's Day. I reached for my phone and one of my best friend had sent me a text message. To my amazement it was a really cute photo, which made me smile like crazy, and I knew today was going to be the best Valentine's Day, not only that but 2012 was finally turning around.
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| What Ray texted me ^^^^^ |
I had never had a Valentine in my life and this year I finally had one. Well I had three actually, but the other two are only a joke. One of my Valentine was Catherine (Kitty Cat) and days earlier we planned to get each other something because we had never gotten anything on Valentine's Day every other year. I got her a card and chocolates. I was extremely excited to give them to her, espicially the card. The card was cute and glittery, and when I saw it I knew she'd love it. I got to school and met up with her, she loved them (I think?), but what she got me was even better! She got me a teddy-bear that says "I love you", chocolates, jellie babies and a card. I was extremely happy when she gave them to me, as I didn't know what she had gotten me. I felt so disappointed with what I gave her but I hope she still appreciated it. One of my close guy friends got me a toy dog; it's really long (like a sausage dog) and it has a coat that says "With Love". The morning was great but there was one person I was really eager to see.
That one person is my boyfriend. The cute, amazing and douche that I blog mostly about. Yes he broke my heart, but he fixed it again didn't he? So did he make up for the amount of pain he caused me? I don't know. We've only been together a week, not even, but I'm happy with him. The month that we weren't together was when I blocked all the pain away, I guess my love for him went with it because I'm having trouble feeling anything for him right now. I know I want to be with him though, I just don't know how to love him again without unblocking the pain. That probably explains why I'm having so much trouble saying 'I love you' to him in person. Also, I don't want the pain. I know how much it hurts and I don't ever want to feel it again. I want us to last longer this time, which is why I pretty much ignore all the little things and avoid fights. I've gotten better at calming down too; my temper only lasts a few minutes and I make sure I don't talk to anyone during those few minutes.
Today retard (Tristan) decided to walk me home again. It was a good surprise :) I completely loved him for coming to see me, espicially today. What made my day was my fairytale moment with him. You know how you just have those moments in movies, that you know could never happen in real life? I call them ''Fairytale Moments''. Today as he gave me a hug, like he usually does before we seperate, he lifted me up and spun me around. It was one of those moments that I wish I could stop and just embrace it before it was over. What would've made it better was if it was with the boyfriend instead. But you take what you can get right?
So what's it like being in a relationship on Valentine's Day? It's great! You can look at that one person and think "Yeah he's mine and today it's about us". When you're with someone on Valentine's Day, you can look at other couples and not feel that empty feeling because you don't have someone. It's a day, even single people can feel the love in the air. You get hugs, kisses and presents. So what I didn't get a flower or presents from him? He was there. He gave me hugs. He gave me kisses. He didn't let go until he really had to. Writing this blog made me realise something, I wish I had earlier today; I really do love him.
I know there will be a time when he breaks my heart again but I don't want to worry about that until the time comes. I'll be in pain but at least I'll know what we had was real. People will tell me 'I told you so' but I'll tell them 'At least love gave me a fairytale, where's yours?'. The thing with love is you shouldn't just be able to feel loved, even more, on Valentine's Day. Valentine's Day is just a day that goes back with many traditions but otherwise it's like every other day of the week. So if you really love someone, shouldn't everyday be like Valentine's Day?
You have someone out there that you love on this special day? Tell them and show them just how much you love them. Just because today is a special day, doesn't mean you can't say those three words every other day. Tell them that you love them EVERYDAY, because everyday should be like Valentine's Day.
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